This is difficult. Thanks to all who shared, especially Elorac. Before I married, my then GF and I had some conversations. Regarding my love making, she said, "you don't have to be so polite." We kept talking and she ended up over my lap. I'd never done anything like that -- well, maybe once with another. It turned us both on, and it became a form of foreplay. We both relaxed into it, and I could do a combination spank-touch that would keep her on the brink prior to explosion. I also found that, once she was excited, I could spank harder. I should mention that she was and remains an ardent feminist. I supported her entirely on this, hence the original remark about my being "polite." I practiced what I believed, especially regarding consent. We married, and the games continued, but tapered when she became pregnant with our first. The delivery was difficult and she felt shattered that, after long effort, it culminated with a C-section. She felt a failure for that. She was inconsolable. Sex diminished quickly because she was breast feeding and caring for the baby constantly. I want to add that I was a very active Dad; in fact the day after the birth a nurse came in to simultaneously change the diaper and coach my wife on the proper way to do that, but she walked into me doing exactly that, making me the hero of the midwives and nurses. That pattern of my involvement continued. The spanking games never really came back. I get an opportunity for a rare "gift" spanking, but she controls the experience entirely, like a nervous driver with a foot floating above the brake pedal. I had even offered my own butt with a "switch" invitation (not from vegetation, God forbid) scenario, but no interest; worse I was accused of manipulation, even though that offer had always been implied. Twins came later, with their own dry spell. Now we are older. I'm retired and that first child is older than my wife was when we married. The decades together have been mostly "polite." We've gone to couples counseling, mostly so we could understand and support the difficulties of our kids' issues, but when spanking has come up, I've gotten the answer I expected, "NO." This is a summary that will not explore other complications. I'll keep the story-telling boundaries and stick to the spanking -- or lack of it. I hope this doesn't come across as feeling sorry for myself. I find it helpful that the question was asked, and that I had the opportunity to answer. To all of you who write, thanks for the stories. |