I discovered this early and indulged it as soon as I could. I never looked back or decided to try for a vanilla relationship or partner and have been very lucky in finding several, some by specifically searching BDSM sites but a surprising number right under my nose in a vanilla world.
My only 'regret' might be a bit different from the regrets already expressed. Mine is an occasional 'be careful what you wish for' regret. I actually am lucky enough to be living in a 24/7 DD & BDSM relationship/agreement, however, for us this is no 'game' (it's fun, we admit being turned-on by it, and it can be very playful, but if we say it's a kind of erotic, adult 'game'....it's an intense one with real ramifications ) and as such my HOH, Rosa, doesn't 'play' at being in charge. She is very reasonable, loving, and fair.....BUT...as the 'boss', she genuinely expects to be obeyed. And for me, despite my desire to live this way, it isn't always easy. If I mess up, I can expect to be spanked for it, and spanked as punishment...not in an enjoyable way. So......."any regrets for having this fetish and need?" When called out for something I know very few other adults would ever be seriously spanked for, something my own partner would never be punished for, I on certain but infrequent occasions, will be embarrassed about my situation. |