I must admit that I have found this much more problematic than most others that have replied. As several have already pointed out, I haven't chosen to have a spanking fetish and cannot regret it the same way I can regret stupid acts and decisions. Still I have often found it a burden, especially before the Internet made it easy to meet others with the same inclination.
When I grew up in the sixties and seventies, it was very hard to find reliably information. I had read enough psychology books to know that I was not the only one with sadomasochistic tendencies, but I had no idea how many we were, and the picture the psychology texts drew of me and my peers was not very comforting. Like everybody else, I had met my share of sadistic schoolboys and had no wish to be associated with them.
I had a fair mix of sadistic and masochistic fantasies about spanking, and neither category seemed particularly wholesome: What does it really have to say about you that you dream of being physically punished in the most embarrassing way conceivable, and - even worse - what does it imply that you dream of treating others the same way? Beating girls wasn't according to the rules of chivalry where I grew up, and still I couldn't get the thought out my mind. Thank God I also had my masochistic streak to even things out a little bit!
I thought the chance of finding a girl with similar interests almost nonexistent. This was the heyday of radical feminism, and although I had no problems with equal rights and equal opportunities for women, the feminists' view of female sexuality left me little hope - there seemed to be an underlying premise in their arguments that any "deviation" in female sexuality was due to male pressure. They may not have said so explicitly, but the message was that if a girl was interested in getting spanked, it was because a male chauvinist society had distorted her natural sexuality. I must admit I found the feminist view of female sexuality hard to believe, but it is wasn't easy for an inexperienced schoolboy to argue about female sexuality with women twenty years his senior!
Of course, the Internet has changed the situation completely, but even today it cannot be unproblematic to be a young spanko. Love and fetish don't always pull in the same direction! |