I have often puzzled over what turned me on to spanking. I don't think that it was spanking or anything to do with it.
I have, for as long as I can remember, so since I was about three, been attracted to the female bottom and from that age and for a few years thereafter I was able to indulge that interest playing "doctors and nurses" with a younger neighbour. I can only remember playing the schoolmaster-pupil variant, involving light spanking of her naked behind, on one occasion and I know that the spanking would have been merely a reason to bare and play with her bottom.
After some years of no action I discovered spanking literature in my early teens (books bought in Soho and a friend's father's collection of Penthouse magazine when the letters section was at least 50% very well written spanking stuff--so well written that one questioned the identity of the "correspondents").
Spanking fantasies and pictures allowed me to enjoy and interact with girls' bare bottoms and gave some context to that. I think also that in common with many adolescent males I was frustrated that the girls I fancied (most of them) did not necessarily fancy me. Spanking fantasies put me in control--they did what I told them to. Something that was definitely not happening for me in real life. Gradually the spanking bit eclipsed the bare bottom bit and it was not long before I was spanking girls because I wanted to, not just because I wanted to take their knickers down.
Having said all that there is no doubt that sexual sub/dom was always there in the background. It is just that I didn't recognise it until I discovered spanking. I recall a book, read when I was about 10 or 11, which included a statement from the female narrator, a teen, that a male friend (or relative) had threatened to strip her naked and throw her into a stinging nettle patch. I found that extremely exciting and the fact that I still remember it now is indicative.
So, in conclusion, I can't think of any specific incident that turned me spanko. I think I was born with an interest in female bottoms and a desire to dominate sexually. Eventually I discovered spanking as the perfect combination of those interests and have not looked back since.
Geoffrey Stirling. |