Anyone Else Feel Like Killing Themselves?

I suffered from a suicidal depression when I was fifteen years old. I also suffered from schizophrenia two years later. I recovered mostly due to the medications I was given (primarilly chlorpromazine). Ten years later I began to fix up my life with the help of valuable philosophical knowledge. I found that the philosophy which is called Objectivism gave me valuable advice concerning how to live a successful and happy life in reality.

A great book for "giving you a boost" is Ayn Rand´s novel Atlas Shrugged. That novel provides the reader with an optimistic but at the same time realistic outlook on life.

But I do not recommend Objectivism as a substitute for professional help!

As a person who has had suicidal thoughts, almost urges since High School, I can tell you that you are NOT alone. There are reasons for those thoughts, physical, metabolical, situational, the list goes on.

For me, I early realized my mood directly swayed based on my diet. I would go from a despair I could not bear to feeling well in a matter of a half-hour after eating and getting my blood sugar moved.

Nevertheless, those feelings persist and I must fight the urge to just give up almost on a daily basis. If you want someone to talk with about your situation, I, of course, suggest professional help first, but offer a shoulder and an ear.

Your thoughts and feelings on sadism and masochism are complicated and run deep in your psyche. Dealing with them in a positive manner starts with realizing the thoughts and feelings in themselves are not evil. How you deal with them may be or may not. They say in the heart of every submissive is a dom and likewise, in the heart of a sadist is a quivering submissive. We all enjoy our "kink" in different ways and no-one should feel shame for their feelings. Hurting people for their enjoyment may be ok, but for yours is when you cross that line. Consent and intent are critical where "hurting" is involved and must be respected.

Whatever your motivation and your past, get some counseling and come to grips with your guilt. Forgive yourself, make amends to those you've hurt and move on in a positive manner. You may find you can even enjoy your "kink" guilt free. Regardless, we only have one life to live. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger, and we are all charged with making the most of the life we are given. No excuses. Live your life to the fullest!

I've had bouts of depression since I graduated. One of the few things that has kept me going was my Need for spanking. Yes, my depression isn't helped by the fact that I neither have the body/gender I crave nor by the fact that I rarely get the intense spankings I crave, but loathe when I receive, but my stories, the work I read here help curb that. So does the outstanding illustrations and videos I come across. If I can't actually obtain what I need I can at least imagine myself being the recipient in those works. That is why I honor those who are brave enough to consensually film themselves for those who can't. Frankly, I probably spend a little too much of my free time regarding our mutual kink but as it keeps the black dog away it's a fair tradeoff.

Excuse me, why are we entertaining suicide and torture All of you guys should be reported to the authorities.

No one has. People have been talking about coping mechanisms or how to seek help. Discussion has also been about consensual activity which is not torture. Suicidal thoughts happen to many people and people won't be helped through suppression of any discussion. On the contrary, feeling unique and alone is a trigger.

I am happy to give you my address details if you want to report me to the authorities. I am proud of what I have worked through to reach acceptance of who I am.

I hope this is an attempt at a joke - though if it is, it's a very poor one.

Wow!

I am amazed at what people get out of reading something. Like the facebook-youtube trends of white dress-v-gold dress or laurel-v-yanni, we can see and hear the same exact things and yet, NOT. Sometimes it is as simple as what we bring to the table ourselves that sets the mood for what we perceive. As to Yankee's views, I am going with that.

That said, what a wonderful thing it would be if someone who really needed help, found it in a simple discussion here. Those brave words shared by others, especially kerrsutherland, touched me with their openness and honesty. It is so hard to put yourself out there and hope noone takes pot-shots at you just for fun.

That is why I caution people to respond NOT react. I've done it myself, REACTED, even recently (very), so I'm not perfect either, but we can all get so much more out of healthy sharing and discussion. If a topic is too severe, or too off-topic, the moderators can guide us in a different direction.

This one sounded like a real call for help, one that needed responses and listening. I hope others agree. To my comrades of despair, take heart in our mutual chemical or psychological imbalances,
or just the topsy-turvy screwball realities that dominate our lives. We are not alone and I for one, am glad we share this novel interest of ours!

Suicide is a terrible idea. You just have to put such thoughts behind you. My grandfather, who was my hero when I was a kid, died when I was fourteen and I was for a week or two convinced suicide was the answer. You never know what life holds for you so you have to hang on in there TraderJack. Sure things can get better for you. All the best.

My comment was not intended as a joke Phil. Any justification of such behavior has no merit.

The thing is, who would you call?

Seriously, who?

You see if a person is not intending self harm RIGHT THIS VERY SECOND there is little that the police or mental health professions can do. They can advise counseling but that's it - and them advising doesn't mean that it's free. If it's free then there is a waiting list - even for people who have suicidal thoughts.

There is no quick fix for people in this situation. No one that you can to make it right. It's just getting through life one day at a time.