kdpierre:
I read posts where people are MARRIED to people with whom they seem to be sexually incompatible. Why would anyone do this?
In my case, it was a combination of factors. Although at the time I met and married my ex-wife I thought the idea of spanking was sexy, I had no idea how obsessed I would become with it years later. It was something I would occasionally fantasize about... but there were many other such things as well, and most of them seemed more normal. Yes, fear of being abnormal played a part. Also, even though I was in my late twenties, I was relatively inexperienced sexually - so having the the joy of sex on a regular basis washed away any thought about what else might be tried. And I fell in love, and wa desperate (and that age, to start a family.
By the time I started to realize the extent of my interest in in spanking, I was married, with kids. Family was a priority. Besides, I thought it likely that my then-present interest in spanking was likely a passing thing. (hah!) I occasionally tried bringing it up with my ex - never so bold even as to use the 'mosquito' technique, but she clearly wasn't that interested. Nevertheless, we managed to try it a couple times - most unsatisfactorily. She thought being over my lap silly. She found that even a few light pats hurt too much. It was frustrating for both of us. (As hard as it might be to convince a vanilla to spank you, imagine convincing a vanilla that she should experience the pain of a spanking).
The incompatible sexual preference was just one of several factors in our eventual divorce. By that time, I knew I would never again lock myself into a LTR with a woman who wouldn't share this interest. This could never be the sole or even primary reason for being together, but it had to be part of it. I'd rather be alone but hopeful about possibilities than with someone I knew would never share in the enjoyment of spanking.
I dabbled in trying to meet someone online at spanking sites, but perhaps I was at the wrong sites. So I focused instead on filtering through people I would meet in in vanilla r/l settings, or over vanilla dating sites. It was never the first thing I'd bring up, but I made sure I did before things got too far - why waste either person's time and risk resentment? Well, some women understandably ran for the hills. Others decided it was something sexy to try. For one, a taste was plenty, and, since I had been honest, we knew we had no future. Another took quite hard smacks to her bottom She would say "I like it because YOU like it." It was also pleasant to discover that what she called HER 'kink' was an extreme passion for giving oral sex. (Difficult to take, no? LOL). Alas, unrelated ciircumstances conspired to doom that relationship.
My latest LTR was with a woman who ended up loving just about every about getting a spanking - the threats, the teasing, the positioning - everything but reaching the point were the smacks were beyond medium hard. Close enough that I could accept it. Was this merely 'settling?' Perhaps. i won't have to deal with the long-term consequences, because this relationship, too, eventually foundered, again for other reasons. (I sure have problems with "other reasons," don't I? Women, beware!)