I like to think of myself as a switch but I do seem to take more punishment that I mete out and the spankings are often with one or more enthusiastic observers looking on. I've even been stripped naked and spanked in public at the monthly meetings held locally for 'like-minded people'. At one such meeting I was paraded through the venue and made to stand in the corner like a naughty child with my sore bottom on show for all to see.
So, Humiliation has been a major factor in my adult spanking activities and I think it goes back to my primary school days when I was spanked by the headmaster in front of the whole class. Patricia, the girl who sat at the desk in front of me despite being probably the best-looking girl in the class (or maybe because of it?) was an absolute cow. She teased me endlessly about my painful experience. During the afternoon break that day, one of the girls was munching on a rosy red apple. "That apple is as red as Richard's bottom," teased Patricia. The boys seemed to find the remark mildly amusing but the it was met with a chorus of uncontrollable giggling from my female classmates. My embarrassment must have been apparent as one of the other girls announced that my face was as red as my bottom. More girlish giggling. It had been the most humiliating day of my life and I couldn't understand why later that day, I felt a strange warm fuzzy feeling coursing through my body. I was too young for there to have been any sexual connotation but looking back I think it was my first experience of the female domination that was to play such an important part in my later life. So, I can only agree with the previous comment:
dextor42desu:
Human psychology is weird. When I got paddled, I hated it. But as soon as the next day, and for weeks after, I would start getting confused thoughts about it.