OK - I have to add my two cents worth.
First, notice that this is the longest discussion ever! It always it, in any spanking group, because every one of us has been wondering the same thing all our lives. We wondered about it as children, because it set us apart, with a secret we could not share but could not make go away. We thought about it all the time, and still do.
Second - it has to be some sort of aberrant gene (in the scientific sense, not a judgment). Why it hung around is the strange thing but, then, it doesn't have any negative consequences, so, for evolutionary purposes, it just stays there, like webbed toes or tongue curling for a certain segment of the population.
Third - I know I was obsessed when reading comics and Kipling and so on, and I Iearned to read around age 4 or 5. So it was always there. I never really got spanked, and the one time I did, it was painless, pants-on, and brief - not at all like what I have always fantasized.
Finally, it was only a fantasy for about 40 years. I never dared to seek to be spanked and never really thought I would enjoy it the same way as I enjoyed the fantasy. Wrong! Not the first time, or the second, but eventually it became a favorite pastime, when I can manage it, and that extends over the last 30 years.
I write a lot. Some of it is just using spanking to work out joke or a story with an interesting catch to a story that could be about something else. Some of it is non-fiction, and so labeled. The most intense, for me, is verse - little read, I realize, because most people do not like verse all that much, but writing it arouses me the most and gets to the heart of my fantasies as they have spun in my head for all these years. Why? Because that's the way we are. I like chocolate. I like classical music. I'm not much for great art, but architecture interests me. Why? Same as spanking - there is no real answer, but there is a need to explore what is inside you, and now, with the internet, we can all do that, albeit (sadly) mostly in secret. A small price to pay. |